We are..

...married!! We got married two weeks ago in the local courthouse. We weren't planning on getting married until November of next year, but since he's PCSing to Japan, we figured this was the very best thing for us. And we couldn't be happier! The day we got married, Thursday October 14, was not what I had imagined it would be. It was rainy and freezing! My hair was a mess, I tripped a million times because of my heels, the food at the restaurant wasn't all that great. But despite it all, it was absolutely perfect. I honestly wouldn't change a thing. I am so blessed and lucky to have this man as my husband. I truly am the luckiest person in this whole world. I have no idea what I would do without J in my life. He completes me in every way possible and with him I can just be myself. He's my best friend, my hero, my soul mate, and my husband. I am a truly blessed lady! Okay, enough with the words..here's some pictures!!

I do <3

With this ring...

I thee wed <3

I now pronounce you Husband and Wife <3

It was the very best day of my entire life. We're still having a real wedding next November. But for now, we did this for us. I am soo happy!

But then again..I'm sad :( Tomorrow, at 9:00 AM,  J leaves for Japan. Ughhh. This whole thing really stinks. I'm going to miss him so much. I am so thankful he's not going back to Afghanistan. But still, having to say "See you soon" to him at the airport is going to be so hard. We just got married, we should be spending all of our time together. Ugh this is horrible. Please, someone tell me this is going to get easier :(

TOMORROW!!

The day is finally here! Tomorrow J and I are getting married. We're having a very small ceremony with my family and a few close friends. Oh my gosh, I can't believe that tomorrow I am marrying my best friend, my soul mate, the person I am spending the rest of my life with. Having a small ceremony like this was not what we were expecting at all...but I know tomorrow will be absolutely perfect. Who cares if it's supposed to pour tomorrow or there are people that don't support us. We're meant to be together. Forever. There is nothing in this world tha would change my feelings for him. He is an incredible man. And I am the luckiest girl in this entire world! We're getting married! Ahhhh!!! :) 

It's been awhile

It's been awhile since I've written. Life has just been crazy. School is keeping me insanely busy. And J and I are trying to spend as much time together as we possible can. He leaves the end of this month. Still no word on the exact date; but it should be around the 29th. I honestly can't believe he's leaving again...and for a year this time. His deployment to Afghanistan was supposed to be his last. He was supposed to be stable here. He wasn't supposed to be PCSable. But of course, as it alway happens with the military, everything changed. Ugh. I knew, when I met him, he could leave whenever they wanted him to. I knew anything were possible with the military. But it doesn't change the fact that this whole situation still sucks. It freakin' blows. A year seems like an eternity. But I know God will bring us through it. J has been told by numerous people that he should be able to come back here to take classes..some classes are a week, others are close to a month. I reallllly hope he can do this. I really hope they let him take as many classes as he wants, so he can just keep coming back here hahaha. I'm planning a trip to go visit him next May, after graduation. I just have noo idea how I'm going to pay for a hotel. My mom said she'd pay for the airplane..which is expensive enough! Now, I have to figure out a way to raise money to stay in a hotel out there. Hopefully I'll be able to find something not too expensive. 


Aside from J leaving, I have some really great news! J and I decided that we didn't want to not be married before he leaves for Japan. So..next Thursday we are going to have a very small, intimate ceremony. We decided this is what is best for us. Getting married before he leaves is the best decision. In the end, I still won't be going with him, which sucks. But we'll be married. And that's what we truly want. We're still having a huge wedding and celebration next November, like I've been planning. Nothing has really changed. We just know that this small ceremony right now is the very best thing for us. There is always a chance that he'll be going back out to Afghanistan..and we didn't want to risk it. So, we're doing it! I am soooo excited!!! Though, there are some people that are too supportive. It really hurts to think that these people are really trying to understand where we're coming from. I just wish everyone would support us in this decision. But you know what, who cares. Nothing or no one is going to take away this feeling! This is the best feeling in the entire world! This time next, I will be his wife! eeeep!! :) 


I hope you all are having a great week! I've been on and reading all of your blogs, just haven't had the time to blog..until now haha. I hope everyone has a great weekend! 

A blog makeover and new information

I finally figured out how to makeover my blog, just the way I want it. Thanks to my wonderful fiancé and his sweet powerpoint skills, I updated it and changed it around a bit. I'm pretty content with it. But now that I know how to go about designing it, I'll probably change like a million more times. Haha.

About a week or so ago, J got new information on Japan. Unfortunately, his orders are already cut, so there is no changing them. Even if we were to get married before he left the States. His orders say unaccompanied, and so that's the way they're staying. It really sucks. But hopefully he'll be able to come for Christmas and/or graduation. And I'm already planning my trip out there next summer. I've talked to several different girls whose significant other is in another country, or going to another country shortly. From what I hear, we'll be able to Skype and he can get a Japanese cell phone and what not. But still. It doesn't make it better. I know I shouldn't be complaining all that much, he's not going back to Afghanistan. And he will be safe. I honestly have no right to complain all that much. I'm so grateful that it's not Afghanistan. But I honestly can't even begin to imagine how lonely I'll be without him here. I've been trying so hard not to complain about. Because again, he will be safe and he is still living and breathing. But it's just so hard, ya know? Half the days I want to scream and yell and cry and just fall asleep, wake up and it all be a dream. And the other half of the days I think to myself that it really will be okay. And the year will fly by. But what if I'm wrong and what if this next year seems like an eternity? ughh. He has to report to Japan by the end of October. We have about a month left together. That's about 30 days to do some many thing together. There is just tons of stuff we thought we'd have all the time in the world for. But now, now we don't. I have to figure out a way to plan and organize out entire wedding by myself. I know we'll be able to talk about through email and Skype and what not, but it just wont be the same. I have to find us somewhere to live when he comes home. I have to register for all the wedding stuff. I have to make our payments. I have to do it all, all alone. It sucks. But again, I feel absolutely horrible for complaining. I know some of you wonderful ladies are dealing with deployments and everything else. I really just should not be complaining. 


I just really hope the next year goes by faster than the speed of light... 

Oh, the waiting game

..yup, that's what my man and I are playing. The lovely and fun game of waiting. Waiting to hear some sort of news..anything at all..good or bad..about his PCS orders. He found nearly 2 weeks ago about his orders to Japan. And he has yet to hear anything else about it. Really? Nothing, nothing at all. And he's supposed to leave in a month. Ohhh the joys of the military! blahhh. J hasn't decided if he wants to extend or not. So for the past couple of days, he's been debating back and forth which would be the best thing for him, for me, for us. It's a really tough decision. And I most definitely don't want to be the reason he choses to extend. I don't want him to hate life all because of me. So for now, I guess I just have to sit back and let him decide this on his own..ohh and wait on the Marines some more haha.

School started last week. And I'm stressed out already, Of course I knew it would be stressful, it is my senior year of college after all. But this stressful, this early in the semester? This cannot be a good sign haha. Surprisingly, I like all the classes I'm taking. But I have no idea why I decided to take 6 classes in one semester. Oh well. At least I'll have all this work to keep me occupied when hubs leaves for Japan.

Well now it's back to waiting..and school work..and more waiting. Ughh! Hope you all had a great 4 day weekend!! :)

Japan..in less then 2 months, really?!

I'm sitting in bed, writing this post with tears in my eyes. This has been one of the worst weekends of my entire life. The only other time I felt this sad was the day J left for Afghanistan last September. So why? Why all the tears? Why the horrible weekend? The Marines..the wonderful Marine Corps is screwing us over..again. What a surprise!

It all started Thursday evening. J got a text from a friend saying he got orders to PCS to California, along with 16 other Marines. J's friend told him he was more than likely going to receive the orders as well. Okay, no big deal. I can move out to Cali come May after graduation. It was sucky, but it wasn't the end of the world. And then Friday morning happened. J left for work at 7:00 and not more then an hour later, my phone rings. It's J...telling me he got orders to PCS to Japan....as in the country in Asia..the one that is like a million miles away from here. We have absolutely no idea why the Marines would be sending him over there. What he does here is totally different than what he'd be doing all the way over there. J only has 14 months left of his contract. By the time he gets out there, he'll have just about 12 months left. So why? Why on earth would they be sending him there for a year? What would the Marine Corps be gaining from this...absolutely nothing if you ask me. But the Marines like to do what benefits them, not anyone else.

After J called me with this wonderful (all kinds of sarcastic!!) news, I did all types of research..weather, food, base housing, pets, everything. Just to kind of get a heads up. So by now, after the tears fade, the idea has finally gotten through..we're going to Japan. And then J gets home from work and gives me more bad news. If I were to go on this little adventure to Japan with him, we'd have to be married..and he would have to extend his contract by at least another two years. Okay, first of all, our wedding isn't until November of 2011. If we were to marry before, my finacial aid and scholarships would change drastically and I just wouldn't be able to afford it. There is always the possibility of dropping out of school. But I don't really want to do that. I graduate in May. I am soo close. I only have this year left, why quit now? And J is absolutely against extending. He wants to get out as soon as he can..which i understandable. So now, he's faced with a really though decision. He can chose to go away for the year without me. Or extend and I go out there in May...if that's even allowed. We don't even know if the Marines will even allow that because right now his PCS orders are for him being unaccompanied. Who knows if anyone will actually care that we're married and I want to come out their in May. Everything is just a mess. I don't want to be the reason he extends. I don't want him to be that unhappy for sooo long. But I don't want to be away from him for an entire year. This is a really sucky situation. He has to report by Oct 31. He has the entire month of Oct off to pack and get out there. We have little over a month to make all these decisions. The Marines are screwing everything up..again. Afghanistan was supposed to be the last time he went anywhere. He was told he would be stablized here in MD. But no, the Marines want what they want. And now, everything is changing. A year is way too long to be away from each other. But extending it for two years is wayy too long in Japan when he wants to be out. Ughhh, Marines, please make this easier! =/

Slacker

I have been the biggest slacker. I have neglected my blog :( Life has just been soo busy. I've been getting everything ready for school, babysitting almost everyday, J and I have been to the movies, cookouts, and have been doing everything else under the sun. But I have the week off from babysitting so I finall have some time to blog and catch up. The last time I blogged, I told you all about my mom's tumors..Well, last Thursday she had surgery to get them removed. Everything went great! The doctor told us after the surgery that the tumors looked to be benign..of course we have to wait for the final test results. But the doctor said we shouldn't worry. Thank you, Lord. I can't even explain the relief I felt once I heard the doctor tell us that. She's still in alot of pain..but we're all in great spirits. Thank you everyone who kept us all in your prayers.

I started Zumba this week. And I love it. I bought the DVDs because I didn't want to take a class and embarass myself in front of everyone haha. I've done it twice already and it is soo much fun. I hate working out, I hate going to the gym, I even hate sweating. I know, I know, it's a natural thing. But for some reason, I think it's just gross. haha. But Zumba makes working out soo much fun and by the time it was over I didn't even know I was sweating lol. I do it right in our living room. It is soo easy and convenient. I'm not trying to lose alot of weight. I just want to stay fit and exercise. When J deployed, I didn't workout at all. And I was stressed, so I ate alot. Soo hopefully Zumba-ing will keep my fit and active.

Speaking of Zumba, I'm going to do it now haha. Hope everyone has a great day!