Saturday, August 28, 2010 less then 2 months, really?!

I'm sitting in bed, writing this post with tears in my eyes. This has been one of the worst weekends of my entire life. The only other time I felt this sad was the day J left for Afghanistan last September. So why? Why all the tears? Why the horrible weekend? The Marines..the wonderful Marine Corps is screwing us over..again. What a surprise!

It all started Thursday evening. J got a text from a friend saying he got orders to PCS to California, along with 16 other Marines. J's friend told him he was more than likely going to receive the orders as well. Okay, no big deal. I can move out to Cali come May after graduation. It was sucky, but it wasn't the end of the world. And then Friday morning happened. J left for work at 7:00 and not more then an hour later, my phone rings. It's J...telling me he got orders to PCS to in the country in Asia..the one that is like a million miles away from here. We have absolutely no idea why the Marines would be sending him over there. What he does here is totally different than what he'd be doing all the way over there. J only has 14 months left of his contract. By the time he gets out there, he'll have just about 12 months left. So why? Why on earth would they be sending him there for a year? What would the Marine Corps be gaining from this...absolutely nothing if you ask me. But the Marines like to do what benefits them, not anyone else.

After J called me with this wonderful (all kinds of sarcastic!!) news, I did all types of, food, base housing, pets, everything. Just to kind of get a heads up. So by now, after the tears fade, the idea has finally gotten through..we're going to Japan. And then J gets home from work and gives me more bad news. If I were to go on this little adventure to Japan with him, we'd have to be married..and he would have to extend his contract by at least another two years. Okay, first of all, our wedding isn't until November of 2011. If we were to marry before, my finacial aid and scholarships would change drastically and I just wouldn't be able to afford it. There is always the possibility of dropping out of school. But I don't really want to do that. I graduate in May. I am soo close. I only have this year left, why quit now? And J is absolutely against extending. He wants to get out as soon as he can..which i understandable. So now, he's faced with a really though decision. He can chose to go away for the year without me. Or extend and I go out there in May...if that's even allowed. We don't even know if the Marines will even allow that because right now his PCS orders are for him being unaccompanied. Who knows if anyone will actually care that we're married and I want to come out their in May. Everything is just a mess. I don't want to be the reason he extends. I don't want him to be that unhappy for sooo long. But I don't want to be away from him for an entire year. This is a really sucky situation. He has to report by Oct 31. He has the entire month of Oct off to pack and get out there. We have little over a month to make all these decisions. The Marines are screwing everything up..again. Afghanistan was supposed to be the last time he went anywhere. He was told he would be stablized here in MD. But no, the Marines want what they want. And now, everything is changing. A year is way too long to be away from each other. But extending it for two years is wayy too long in Japan when he wants to be out. Ughhh, Marines, please make this easier! =/

Monday, August 16, 2010


I have been the biggest slacker. I have neglected my blog :( Life has just been soo busy. I've been getting everything ready for school, babysitting almost everyday, J and I have been to the movies, cookouts, and have been doing everything else under the sun. But I have the week off from babysitting so I finall have some time to blog and catch up. The last time I blogged, I told you all about my mom's tumors..Well, last Thursday she had surgery to get them removed. Everything went great! The doctor told us after the surgery that the tumors looked to be benign..of course we have to wait for the final test results. But the doctor said we shouldn't worry. Thank you, Lord. I can't even explain the relief I felt once I heard the doctor tell us that. She's still in alot of pain..but we're all in great spirits. Thank you everyone who kept us all in your prayers.

I started Zumba this week. And I love it. I bought the DVDs because I didn't want to take a class and embarass myself in front of everyone haha. I've done it twice already and it is soo much fun. I hate working out, I hate going to the gym, I even hate sweating. I know, I know, it's a natural thing. But for some reason, I think it's just gross. haha. But Zumba makes working out soo much fun and by the time it was over I didn't even know I was sweating lol. I do it right in our living room. It is soo easy and convenient. I'm not trying to lose alot of weight. I just want to stay fit and exercise. When J deployed, I didn't workout at all. And I was stressed, so I ate alot. Soo hopefully Zumba-ing will keep my fit and active.

Speaking of Zumba, I'm going to do it now haha. Hope everyone has a great day!