Friday, May 21, 2010

It's a beautiful day

Hi all! I hope everyone is having a wonderful day. I woke up this morning in a really bad mood. All week I've been on the go, running errands, wedding planning, and just tons of stuff. So this morning I was planning on sleeping in. I have nothing on the agenda today, so I was going to sleep in, do the dishes, and just see where the day took me. Well, that didn't work out too well. This morning the fire alarm started going scared the living daylight out of me!! I woke up to the screetching sounds and I was really confused. At first, I thought it was just our first thought was maybe I left something on..maybe something was burning. Then I realized it was the alarm for the entire apartment. My initial thought was "Oh lord..i've never been in a fire" haha. So I called my mom..yes I called my mom haha. I walked out in the hall and there is no one insight..oh great I'm the only one home today. Then some random guy walks down the hall.."Oh, sorry we're just testing the alarms"...Just testing the alarms...are you for real?! First of all, you scared me half to death! Jeremy's at work..I had no idea what I was supposed to do or where I was supposed to go. And don't you thin you should have let all the residents know you were just testing the alarms..don't you think the people who live in this building have a right to know?! And second of all, you interupted my wonderful plan of sleep...all because you testing the stupid alarms! Sorry, I may sound a little bitchy..but I was just so shocked and surprised..and I couldn't fall back asleep afterwards..Oh well. I guess it's good to know our alarms work, just in case.

Despite my bad morning, I am in a wonderful mood. I'm not quite sure why. But I'm just in a great mood. After a week full of rain, it's finally sunny and warm here. And tonight Jeremy and I are having a movie night. It's been awhile since we've had night to just chill out and relax. We're planning on renting the movie Taking Chance. It look soo good, but I know it's going to make me cry. From what I've heard, it's about a high up Marine who takes it upon himself to bring home to the body of a PFC from Iraq. I heard the movie is absolutely amazing..but I know it's going to be soo hard to watch. I think Jeremy's excited to see it, but I think he might also show a little tears. I'm just excited to be able spend a nice quiet evening with my hubby.

I'm also in a fantastic mood because I looked at more wedding dresses yesterday! Ahh, I think I fall in love with every dress I try on. It's going to be hard picking just one. Haha. I also bought brand new makeup at Ulta. I've never been in the store before. But a friend of mine uses Bare Minerals and I've been dying to try it. I have scars on my face from acne from when I was in high school. I finally don't have acne anymore but it left alot fo scars. I read online that Bare Minerals is really great for covering up scars and acne and roschesia (spelled that sooo wrong!) So I'm really hoping this makeup works..for $60 is better! I'm not one to go spend so much money on makeup..but if it des the job then it makes up for the price of it!

Did anyone watch Grey's last night?! Holy crap...what an episode! I've missed alot of episodes this season because of school and finals and what not. But I just had to watch it last night! I couldn't stop crying. My grandfather, who just passed away in November, loved that show. And I know he would have loved last nights episode. I just couldn't stop crying. The show made me think of him and it brought back alot of memories. I know he's up i heaven..with all the other angels I've lost along the way. It just hits me sometime that he's not here. But, I'm not going to ruin this beautful day by being upset. I know my pop is looking down on Jeremy and I as we plan our wedding. I know my Pop kpt Jeremy close to him when he was deployed. It's beautiful days like this that I thank God my grandfather went peacefully in his sleep.

I hope you all have a wonderful weekend!

Tuesday, May 18, 2010

Unpacked, out-of-town guests, and wedding dresses

It's been a couple days since I've blogged. This weekend was crazy hectic. We moved furniture all day Saturday and spent all evening unpacking and decorating. It feels so good knowing my man and I have our own place..I say place and not home because we're still renting an apartment. So I guess it doesn't quite feel like a home yet. Nonetheless, it feels soo good knowing we live together. Moving out of of my parent's house wasn't nearly as tearful as I thought it would be. It was a little sad, especially because I have to leave my kitten (roommate's allergic), but I'm proud of myself..I didn't cry as much as I anticipated.

Our first weekend living together and we already had our first out-of-town guest. One of my best friends from school is in from Texas for graduation this weekend. I like having pepole from out-of-town visit. I like being able to show off our new home, show off my ring, and brag a little about all the wedding plans! Haha..but it's a brides privilege to brag a little bit! It was soo good to see her though. I've been through alot in the past few months and I parted ways with a very close of mine, and this weekend was just what I needed. I needed that reassurance that just because one door closed doesn't mean all my other ones did. I needed to surrond myself with friends and family who make me feel important and not people who bring me down. All in all, it was a really great weekend.

Yesterday, a group of my closest girlfriends, my mom, and I went to look at wedding dresses and bridesmaids dresses. It was so much fun. I found a few dresses that I absolutely adore! And I also picked out two possiblities for my bridesmaids to wear. I fell in love with these dresses. But, I don't want to buy my dress too soon. We're not getting married until November 26, 2011. I'm afraid if I buy a dress too soon, I'm going to not like it or I'm going find something better. So, I'm holding off for a bit to actually purchase my dress. But, it doesn't hurt to look, right?! :) For now, I'll just keep looking and trying on...I must admit I felt like a princess trying on all the dresses. I cannot wait till I actually purchase my wedding dress. Ahh, I just can't wait for the wedding!

Wel, I have an apartment to clean and it's raining here, which is making me soo sleepy. I need to find some motivation! Hope everyone has a wonderful day!!

Friday, May 14, 2010

All packed up

Hi all! I am finally finished packing! Who knew I had soo much stuff?! I certainly had no idea! Haha. It's wierd..seeing all my stuff in boxes..taking down my pictures..sleeping in this room one more night. It's a little sad. But I can't wait for Jeremy and I to officially start our lives together. I'm excited to see where life will take us. I think I'm even more excited to decorate the apartment! Before, it was just Jeremy and his roommate living there, with zero sense of style! And now, I'm moving in and later on this year his roommate's girlfriend is moving in with us too! I think it may get a little crammed at times, but all in all it should be alot of fun. So, to prepare for my decorating days ahead of me, my mom and I went shopping today. Ans when I say shopping, I mean shopppppingg! I can't believe how much stuff we bought. We got all new bath towels with matching rugs. They match the shower current and decor we already have in there. It's brown with ocean blue accents. It's girly, with a touch of manliness..didn't want to pick out anything too girly for the Mr. :) We also picked out new placemats to go with the new kitchen table my sister is lending us. I also got my very first plant! Needless to say, I'm estatic about it! I'm just afraid I won't remember to water it. I also got little odds and ends for the kitchen. I also got a juicer. I have absolutely no idea if I'll even use this. But it gives me something to try this summer! I found soo many deals at TJ Maxx. I must say, I love that store! I think I'll be spending more time there this summer :) I think this will be really good for us. I think living together will allow us to really see each others true sides, even though we aready know each other very very well. It's a little sad, knowning I'm leaving my family. But I think this is going to be wonderful. And I know I'll always be right around the corner from my family.
Well I'm exhausted. So I'm going to snuggle up with my man and watch Criminal Minds. Have a wonderful weekend!

Wednesday, May 12, 2010

It's a bittersweet week

Well, this is my last week living at my parent's house. On Saturday, I'm moving in with Jeremy. I'm so excited for us to live together and see where life is going to take us. But at the same time, I'm a little sad. It's a sad feeling, packing up my bedroom, putting all the things from my childhood away. Saying goodbye, even though I know I'll see everyone at least once a week. Jeremy keeps asking me if I'm ready for this next step. I am, I really am. We're engaged and we're planning our wedding, and it will be nice to have a little home together. When Jeremy was deployed, whenever I needed to talk, someone was always home. I could always count on having someone to talk to. I know I still have that and I know I always will. It's just a little hard growing up haha.

Aside from packing up and moving out, it is finals week..ughh. So far, so good. I haven't been too stressed out. But my two hardest exams are Thursday and Friday, so I've been studying my butt off! I've also been constantly searching for a part-time job for the summer. It's really important that I find a job this summer. There is no way we're going to be able to pay for a wedding, even with the help of my parents, on one income (especially a military income). Hopefully I'll be able to find one soon. I also don't want to spend all summer just hanging out in the apartment. While it will be nice to lay by the pool some days and work on wedding stuff, I think I might go crazy if I stay in the apartment all summer long! I think I'm a little too picky when it comes to finding a job. I want a job during the same hours that Jeremy works. I think it's kind of selfish of me, but I want to be able to spend time with my fiancee. Hopefully I'll find a job soon.

Yesterday, Jeremy told me he was asked again to deploy. Since he's been home, he's been asked several differen times if he wanted to deploy again. I know, I know, this is the military life. But every time another deployment is brought up, I can't help but get upset. When I met Jeremy, I knew what he job was and what that entails. I'm not complaining about loving a Marine. But the constant fear of deployments just stinks! I know this his job and I know I can't stop him if he has to go. I just keep praying that they won't make him go again. But if he does have to leave again, I will continue to love and support him no matter what. And just like last time, I'll continue to pray until he comes home safe. But for now, I keep praying that they won't take him again.

Well, that's it for today..back to studying! Have a wonderful day!

Friday, May 7, 2010

First Post & Military Spouse Appreciation Day!

Hi! And welcome to my blog! This my first time ever posting on a blog, but I wanted to try it out. When my Marine was deployed, I wrote all the time. I wrote him letters (obviousily) and I wrote for myself. Mainly about how I was feeling with him being away from home. Since he's been back (Since early February) life has been so hectic. We got engaged! We're moving in together next weekend, planning a wedding, living the lovely military life (haha), while I'm trying to finish out my junior year of college. In last few months, I've gained friends, lost friends, and reconnected with old friends. I lost family members who have been in my life since the day I was born. I realize every day how precious life is and how quickly it can be taken away..especially with the military involved. And so, this is why I'm here. To continue my rant and ramble, to talk about weddings plans, to complain, and most of all just to write out my feelings. I find it really helpful and relaxing to just write, even if no one ever reads it. So I plan on posting daily, if not hopefully every other day. I'm hoping this summer isn't as hectic as the last few months.

Today, May 7, is Military Spouse/Significant Other Appreciation Day! I cannot even explain how much joy and pride I get from being the fiance of a Marine. I never imagined I would ever be living this sort of lifestyle..the constant fear or deployments, the long work hours, waking up way too early when he leaves for PT, and waiting by the phone while he was gone for just one phone call to let me know he's alright, he's alive and he is coming home. But, I fell in love with him, and I fell hard. So now, there's no way I'd ever give up this lifestyle. He chose to defend his country and I choose to keep on loving him through everything the military throws at us. This day means so much to me. Our men and women fight in combat for our freedom. Without them, we wouldn't have what we have today. And so, it is onlt right to recognize the men and women who stand behind these people. Who are there at the airport watching them walk away, very well knowing this may be the last time you'll see them. It's us, the spouses and significant others, that worry when we hear something on the news, that lose sleep over it, that cry hours on end because of it. We do this, not because we have to, but because we want to. These are our men and women and we will forever be standing behind them, praying for them. supporting them, and loving them. No one will ever understand why we do it..but we do it anyway. It is only right for America to recognize the sacrifices, tears, joys, pain, happiness that we go through when standing behind our men. To all the military wives, fiances, girlfriends out there, today is a day for us! Have a wonderful and blessed day! <3

-The Marine Fiance